2014, Let me be honest with you...

“For last year's words belong to last year's language,
And next year's words await another voice,
And to make an end is to make a beginning."
- T.S. Eliot, Four Quartets


I don't know about you guys but I'm pretty excited for New Year's Eve.
Here are the few reasons why:
1) Spending my NYE at a hotel staycation with my best friends.
2) Proud of myself for surviving those tears,backstabbing,lies & bullshit from people throughout the year
3) I'm damn well happy to leave 2014 behind.


If you are wondering if I have learnt any lesson from this year, I would say that I have more guts to cut
people out of my life now. I usually give in and allow people to step over me. Especially friends who took
advantage of my kindness before but recently, I realised that I do not have the patience to tolerate some
people anymore.

There were a few times this year whereby it involved school,work and personal life together that totally
changed my perspective on some people. They were the worst events that happened this year other than my break-up.
I hate drama. I hate liars and I always try my best to stay out of it. So, I had to cut people off my
connections and re-consider my own happiness.
If you(the people who are in my cut-off list to this situation) are still in my connection,
I probably just want you to watch how well/happy I do now in the present and the future.
And that includes my exes/past dates who some finally took note of my existence after years or
some who are trying to wiggle back into my Life again.

My reaction to all of these people is simply, NO.

No more.

Thus,I am beginning to understand why people would judge you based on who you surround or
associate with and that made me picky about it.
I have also grown tired of mingling and meeting new people such as on Tinder,Badoo or wherever.

"I am pulling the Ted Mosby and be DONE with it already." - Thought Catalog.

I recently met up with a friend whom I have not seen for almost a year and we were heavily
discussing about dating apps, mingling and the kind of dates/guys we stumble upon.
It made me recall a conversation I had last week with a 40-year old man whom I got to know in
Kudeta sometime ago(Don't ask, he was interested in my friend not me).
He told me to chill and just enjoy the ride because I have plenty of time as I am only 22 years old.

He was right.

I guess the only reason why I went through this mingling phase in a short period of time is because
I have never ever put myself out there into the dating scene until this year. I was indeed scared of
being lonely and unloved but I have gotten used to being alone again in a happy way.
To be really honest, I always prefer to be alone or do things by myself since secondary school years,
but I guess I was just afraid for a while after a break-up.

However, I would have not survived all those tears and shitty drama without my family,
close friends and newfound friends.

Those days whereby I kept ranting and maybe teared a little during work at RWS and you made me
laugh about everything, Thank you [A].
When I was lost and confused about making a tough decision to leave my previous job but you gave me a few mature advices on how to handle it which made me feel better and motivated, Thank you [H].
When I was lifeless for a few months and you guys add colours into my Life ,
Thank you [A, Sw and a few others].
When I needed someone to eat good food, desserts and do crazy risky things with me for
my birthday and other random times, Thank you [H].
When I felt really lonely/vulnerable on that one night and only you knew but also choosing to listen,
Thank you [L].
When I needed a shoulder to cry hard-and-so-much on, Thank you Mum and Dad.

Thank you. (Though I have not met a few of you guys for quite some time but hehe.)

On the positive and greener side:
1) I have grown much closer to my family
2) I finally picked up cooking
3) I am less naive
4) I feel more comfortable with myself (Screw those diets and weighing machines)
5) I feel much better and decisive about certain things as compared to before.

Yes, so much has happened in a year but I am also thankful for the rest
whom I got to know along the way.
People come into your Life for a reason whether it is good or bad.
In the end of the day, always remember that you've only got yourself to fall back on and
I have definitely learnt how to handle different people and situations better this time.


“I hope that in this year to come, you make mistakes.
Because if you are making mistakes, then you are making new things,
trying new things, learning, living, pushing yourself, changing yourself,
changing your world. You're doing things you've never done before,
and more importantly, you're Doing Something.

So that's my wish for you, and all of us, and my wish for myself.
Make New Mistakes. Make glorious, amazing mistakes.
Make mistakes nobody's ever made before.
Don't freeze, don't stop, don't worry that it isn't
good enough, or it isn't perfect, whatever it is:
art, or love, or work or family or life.

Whatever it is you're scared of doing, Do it.
Make your mistakes, next year and forever.”
― Neil Gaiman

So before I end this post, I posted some highlighted photos from this lovely year of 2014...

Thank you all for reading and making my 2014 an interesting year!

HAPPY NEW YEAR, EVERYONE!




Til the next post, xoxo~